Hearts Pain

There is a pain in my heart.... I cannot reveal.. I cannot tell...It is excruciating, ripping through my self, ripping through my strength,ripping through me.I kept on asking myself, What do I do with this pain, What do I do in this pain....My soul has no answers, my self has no answers, Im crying in agony unable to breathe... Unable to live...Unable to console.It is very abstract to explain the bounds of this pain, but for certain is a peril that I know, deep in my heart, orginating from deep within imbuing through my soul,through my inner self allowing nothing to bleak on its way but just festinating to my eyes in the form of tears, to flow. What do I do ,I dont know, but have chosen to live my life with this pain through the times that shall heal i believe..... But shall yet know, ever, deep inside my self,deep inside my soul that I have a pain in my heart......... I have a pain in my heart.

A Beautiful Face

Yesterday,I was seeing a beautiful face... And this was the face which I have been longing all this while to see.The face has a charm which I have never seen before, and what begets the charm is the innocence which lies inside the person, is what I realised.Every expression of the face leads me to different boundses of love and passion which warm the heart in such a way never felt before..the smile on the face is so very true like a childs, that it makes me cry for thanking Him for creating and giving it to me..The Eyes are what I love the most in this beautiful face as they twinkle and lead me to new horizons of ecstasy of my life....These eyes have the glow, the lustre which I have always searched before, for eyes speak what the mind thinks.I can see through these eyes the love what they have and life they speak about, making me realise what I was waiting before in my own world, just to be felt , just to touched from inside for giving that sense of being complete, for making my life accomplished.The beauty of this face lies in showing not what it wants to show but rather what you want to see.... This is what has lead me to find what is the tale behind these eyes what is the grief which is enshrouded..Never to be relieved, never to be told to anyone... But still smiling, still shining, having the glow in the eyes just for the one who wants to see, just for the one who wants to love, just for the one who wants to live...... It is a beautiful face.

A Life to Run

I have been always pushing my life through and through till now, untill I bumped into a friend of mine who told me a very deplorable fact about my life saying that "I dont know how to run my life"... felt sad intially, but put me into a thought as to whether is it true ,whether I have been living all my life till now just in an illusion that I know how to run my life or is that I actually know how to run it.. Staying bemused in this thought, which I am still, I started becoming inquisitive asking myself why did the person tell this to me.Is that what the person saw of my life, is that what everyone feels or thinks about me, was the person in a different state of mind may be and might have just felt it at that instance and told it to me.The second part of my speculative probing lead me to understand myself better... I think I have that reality attached to my life where I evince the person in front of me what they want rather than what I want.... but not necessarily all of this is true as in front of some, my loved ones, I do it with innocence and not out of intentions.Anyhow the question as I expressed still remains do I know how to run my life ?..May be or may be not.But one thing I still do and shall keep doing, 'push my life' believing the fact that something good shall be the outcome when you are leading it with the best of your intentions.... with the best of your heart..... with the best of you.

Sizzling Brownie

The feeling of content... The feeling of being complete... the passion.. the smack... the love for the cauteristic feeling of the heart...... It has begun... and it is peachy.To live for this....to die for this, is a mania of the souls... is a mania of the heart.Sizzling is the chocolate of life... Emollient on the heart is the cream of ice...Unhinged in my own way.... Crazy in my own world.

I love the Sizzling Brownie..........

Promulgated henceforth as the " Kiss Of Love "..

Homogenous Ether

Its been long... its been long , I love this part of life.This is for the person I love most.

http://www.tu-harburg.de/rzt/rzt/it/Ether.html --- Albert Einstein, an address delivered on May 5th, 1920, in the University of Leyden.

Misted Ways

Walking down the Life`s way just came across a thought or may be a concept of "Reasons Of Choices"... I have been trying to cipher out this part of life where is it the Reasons that lead to the choices or the other way round the Choices lead to the reasons.Thinking on those lines got me to many questions again and also answers.. which has always been with me.This thought may have come to me because I was trying to find why one person is sad or happy in this world...Lead me to believe that, it is ultimately you who decide that, out of your own ways which you beleive are true and have choosen them... May be or may be not is a different question to answer.. So the thought originates as to why did you choose them...What were the reasons which made you choose them...Where these reasons really the outcome of those situations for which you are choosing these roads which u believe are so veracious... the other side of the coin speaks something else although.... If we take the lines of thought as these reasons are there because of these Choices or rather as I said above these choices have lead to these reasons, then we have to actually start intellecting whether these Choices are worth being there because of these reasons.. or are these choices just in front of you and you have to choose among them.. It is becoming difficult for me to actually adjudicate which of these is right...... But one thing I started looking at, out of all these reasons and choices and reasons of these choices is that they all come out either from your heart or mind... But the funniest part is that it comes to the same again, whether you listen to your heart or listen to your mind.. again two choices ,, because of many reasons and you have to choose one of them , yet not knowing the reason as to why you are choosing that choice....

Awaiting Gist

Life leads us in different ways.. Just finding new things all the time.How much or upto what level we understand these things ?? Do we need to understand all of them or just leave them behind knowing them in your heart alone ??.. I get amazed as what you might be lead to or getting lead to knowing these things.
We opt to stay in that world of ours were we are really happy... not knowing the fact that we can be happy here too sometimes.. Its not all that bad all the times.. It just how you intend to see it.One of my friends told me once that " There is nothing Good or Bad ,it is just the perspective we choose to see it", I beleive she is quite right in telling so, as I found myself that all this while which i kept seeing as bad turned out to be good.
It is just the time which makes us speak or see things like this... We have to wait for the time to pass and it might turn up to be what ever you wanted.Very Positive... Ok.. Might also be what you never wanted.
But it all zero`s down to the same you have to wait for everything , wait for the life to take you there, show you these things.Some people happen to see, some people forget to see by then and some ignore to see... even at sometimes others show you,but you still dont see. Waiting has made me grow,think and be patient.
May be I need a break talking all these things.. But let me wait,may be something new coming my way.. who knows.

Abstrused Smite

It is been sometime since I am staying bemused of the fact of what happenned to me...But have cleared the haze now.. It is all done..It is all lost..First I thought I belonged to that world where i was staying,was the same place where they belong to.The similar pain went through each of our hearts,all the while making me realise that we are all dragging along the same thing all this while...But it feels bad when you take of the load someone is carrying in the best of your interests actually intending to do something much more better than you can, but just get in return the closed doors,through which they dont allow you anymore..what do you do , I still remain in the same state of beguile which you have always remained....But it is all what you have with that person which matters... Is it that way or just go your way thinking that the person wants you no more in their life ??..

Enshroud Heart

"Errant Lives Unexpected Finds " .... Life has begin to live its own way .Finding people ( I mean finding -- refer title) seeing what they live for ,their enshrouded hearts which do not want to speak but yet want to shout aloud to the world , but cannot ... they cry in their own inner hearts in their own inner minds in their own inner souls.. in their own inner worlds...It is this pain which I have known since long...seen it before but have realised now.. it is all same with us..with we people who live like this... in this sweet pain.. not to be shared not to be told..What is this pain ??? I ask myself .. I dont know..Have many answers ..yet no answers.

Eternity

It is Done...